the BRUTAL, UGLY truth of my FABULOUS, BEAUTIFUL life.
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20:51 + 04.11.2006 = ...it's hard to swing AND waltz.
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this is getting ridiculous...
...but, i am actually turned off by the presence of someone else sleeping [over] in my bed.
as far as i can tell, this is due to sparks-lessness. meaning that, the last three duvetfortress-trespassers have been my last three significant others. [[that's djp, hermex, and chi'steven, chronologically.]] and as we know, if i'm not a mindblown, weak-kneed, floored, puddle o'stomachbutterflies & firework-laden irises -mess in the misnomic "power" of an other [[<--SO used in Sartre and Beauvoir form]], then i'm not so bothered with human interaction at all.
cos it's scary.
and hard.
and, at risk of sounding child-like, it's stupid.
damn my impossibly high standards; i am going to end up the badguy when this is all said and done.
unless something surprises me.
...cos i do play fair: 1 month to surprise me.
[but they never do.]
[[but maybe he will.]]
who knows.
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comments?? --->[thisaway]--->[[looks to me as though there are...]]---> 1 repercussions thus far
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