the BRUTAL, UGLY truth of my FABULOUS, BEAUTIFUL life.
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2:45 p.m. + 2003-10-21 = [untitled for lack of linear thinking at the moment.]
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airports. leaving. leaving the holiday at the airport. generally accompanied by a sense of it's-good-to-be-going-home. hmmm, not so much this time, going home is more like a chore (the type sans allowance). and i said "i love you, you know" in fewer or more words, in an awkward way (looking back, i fear that it may even have come across as forced... which couldn't be further from the truth)... it was last minute though i'd been meaning to say it for the last 2 or 3 days, so it needed be said. somewhere between the shy-shouting of my name at the arrivals gate, the "i'm wondering what it would be like to kiss you" and the berkeley rose garden excursion, i had the amoric epiphany.
and as the plane violently, sporadically shook with turbulencial spurts, i was completely calm and thinking of warm harms, happy eyes, sweeter-than-sweet lips and the scent of man and his room carved into my clothes and jacket.
the mixtape will be made shortly. cheap airline tickets are already being scouted out. grad school applications will be devoutly filled in.
head over heels? indeed, my good people, indeed.
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