the BRUTAL, UGLY truth of my FABULOUS, BEAUTIFUL life.
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3:33 p.m. + 2003-08-29 = late morning
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this late morning:
i search my jeans pockets for my cigarettes. i decide to have a fag on the stoop to andy's new place in my pyjamas. i find the remainder of last night's packet of smokes.
me: "shit. was i bumming out cigarettes last night or did i smoke all these myself?"
andy: "you gave one to matt."
me: "who?"
andy: "my friend matt that you had a crush on."
"andy... i was drunk, i'm sure i had a crush on just about everyone."
but then i recalled the friend matt ("...there are soooo many matts here"). he looked like a former go-go boy (or should i say "boi"?). he wore a sleeve-less black shirt with four rips (as though freddy krueger had taken a slash at it) held together with ample amounts of safety pins. this shirt was most likely purchased at gabriella's or somewhere equally gay. i was too twatted to judge, plus his face was akin to the primary photograph on brian's gaydar page (minus captivating eyes and wanton look). so perhaps, the crush was warranted with or without the gin&tonic extravaganza.
it's nearly september. it's nearly october. i would say it's time to get my ass into gear, but well... the connotations, implications, puns and the like are far too numerous and it's much too early, presently, to be suggestive.
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