1. the newer-but-not-newest dishwasher said [to other people] that i've an attitude problem and that either he leaves or i leave. the past two shifts of mine have been cut short [by other people] so that the two of us aren't working together. thing is, i don't know what the hell i've done to upset him. one moment, i'm helping him clean up his messy that nearly caused me to take a spill... five minutes later i'm being accused of an attitude problem [by other people.] um... sorry, i helped you clean up your shit, i guess.

the shiftlead tells me not to take it personally. yeah... um... then why's it only me!? this is totally a gay thing, i bet. or i can only hope. though, the dishwasher is bi-polar and i DO tend to have a unintentional pulling effect on the depressed, much like the moon does tides. [[let's cross our fingers for "hate crime"!]]

2. i attended a houseshow of a new co-worker friend. she just started; we just be-friended. she's already leaving [see!? problem with human interaction #4: people abandon].

i left the show earlier than most [cos seeing live music just makes me want to play]. "you can play, mattson!" --aye. but it's late and they're not particularly my crowd.-- "what's your crowd?" --glittery sorority girls with recently broken hearts.--
[[she puts arm around me and says,]] "but everyone has a glittery sorority girl with a recently broken heart inside them."

and this is why i love her.

3. dating is expensive and time-consuming. generally, it is disappointing [in the way that wanting some action and getting nil is], but mostly it makes me do things i don't typically do... like drink 4 drinks on a night upon which i'd typically just be having a nightcap or cup of tea and doing the crossword puzzle until i slept crept up at a reasonable hour.

i seem to be doing a fair amount of dating first-date-dating and not a lot of second-date-dating. i gotta stop doing this. it's sucking all the life and money out of me.

[ok. just the money's disappearing.]