the BRUTAL, UGLY truth of my FABULOUS, BEAUTIFUL life.



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10:25 p.m. + 2005-07-11 = ignore.

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i stared at his profile on the dreaded dotcom. it seems to be the only place i've not blocked [removed] him [from my life] (which i could do easily enough, really.) ((but don't.))
honestly, i hope he's happier this way, the not-speaking/ignoring-ness. i could, afterall, say that i'm just being this sort of cunt because it is better for him to not know me--to pretend that the past couple years of me-interaction [is there a word for onesided-action?] did not happen--to not want to know me. but hell, we all certainly know better than that... cos i'm simply not that gracious, or even that charitable, of a benefactor [[jane addams sense of the word]] that if such were the case would imply. in other words: i don't do "cruel" to be "kind." [[which (serendipitously) is the song playing randomly from the great&vast unknown [[also known as: "my iTunes library."]]

i did it out of hurt and anger. misdirected; tobesure, tobesure, tobesure! but said and done, nonetheless. i did it for selfish reasons. i DO it for selfish reasons. i am happier... even in a moment such as this.

i hope he is too. it's just better this way.

[[i promise a return of pastry angst and wit in the next entry... so just let me have this one ho-hum-mer... and NO FLACK.]]

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comments?? --->[thisaway]--->[[looks to me as though there are...]]---> 0 repercussions thus far

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